Lincoln Times-News article ….by Michelle Bernard
On September 27, 2017 by Michelle LoveI spent an hour of Michelle Bernard’s time on the phone on Monday, Sept. 25. I told her most of our story, crying through most of the hour’s discussion. I felt like she understood the hell that we went through, that BJ went through – at least some of it. She really did a great
Relapse.
On May 22, 2017 by Michelle LoveMay 22, 2015 changed us. BJ’s leukemia was back. It had never really left. Like the coward it is, it mutated and hid until it had enough numbers to show itself. It was a direct blow to the future we planned and sparked a battle like none other before it. It turned us into raging
One year since I laid my eyes on him
On March 11, 2017 by Michelle LoveOne year ago today, I looked upon my son one last time before his casket was closed. We celebrated the amazingly inspiring young man that he had become, and it was a beautiful service. We followed behind as they drove him to where he would be lowered into the ground, and watched as 4 of
Happy 16th birthday BJ
On March 4, 2017 by Michelle Love“I love you more than anything!” “Come give me one more hug” “Mom…” “I’m scared. I don’t want to leave you and Carly.” “Get this thing off me, I can’t breathe!”…. The sound of silence. I miss your voice and your hugs and our talks and watching you play football and basketball. I miss tucking
So tired
On February 28, 2017 by Michelle LoveEver have those dreams that rip you from sleep when you hear a call out “Mom!”? …. Not knowing if it was real or if your mind was playing cruel tricks again in the middle of the night. I’m just so. Tired.
Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything…
On February 25, 2017 by Michelle LoveA year at home
On February 20, 2017 by Michelle LoveA year ago today we left our “home away from home” (Levine Children’s Hospital), and were transported home. We were blessed with another 15 days together. We’re still fighting, BJ….we will never stop. I miss you so much. A year ago: Saturday, February 20, 2016 After 90 consecutive days in the hospital, we will be
BJ’s poem: “Cancer sucks”
On September 30, 2016 by Michelle LoveBJ posted this poem on September 30, 2015.His words…..💔 It’s BJ again and I figured since it’s the last day of Childhood Cancer Awareness month I’d post this. C: Caring: people caring for youA: Asking and answering so many questionsN: Nurses by your side to give you something for nausea or pain.C: Cautious, cause your
BJ’s poem: “Leukemia from my perspective”
On September 25, 2016 by Michelle LoveReposting a poem that BJ wrote a year ago at 2am. He never slept very well after his cancer diagnosis and often was awake throughout the night. This is Leukemia from BJ’s perspective. #CureForBJRound2 #BJStrong #cancersucks #childhoodleukemia#childhoodcancerawareness #goGold #LiveGold #morethan4 #heshouldbehere Leukemia from my perspective.Written by: BJ@2a.m. L: Losing your chance to live life the way you should (I missed 6th grade
Divided
On September 14, 2016 by Michelle Love4 years ago on this day, every plan I had for the future changed. We went into a fight and survive mode for the next 3 1/2 years. Living with a heightened awareness of the unseen evil lurking to harm my precious boy. 1 year ago on this day, I took BJ to Duke to
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