Knocked Down – Grief 68 days
On May 13, 2016 by Michelle LoveThe crashing wave of grief. It’s so torturously random. It doesn’t care when it hits…it just does. Just driving to pick up my daughter and her friends from school, it sneaked up on me and I physically felt knocked to my knees, nauseated, and struggled to hold back the rush of tears I knew were Read More
29 days Empty
On April 5, 2016 by Michelle LoveIt’s just that….emptiness everywhere. Empty. Empty bedroom. Empty laundry basket. Empty place at the table. Empty spot on the couch. Empty arms. HUGE empty hole in my heart. Read More
What’s the Plan?!
On March 28, 2016 by Michelle LoveHe didn’t save BJ. He didn’t heal him in the way we thought He would, or even thought He should. It’s been 3 weeks now. I’ve never been so broken or felt so lost. I’ve been sad, and distraught, and solemn and sullen. I’ve had fleeting moments of laughter with no tears, and laughter through Read More
BJ’s obituary
On March 9, 2016 by Michelle LoveOne of the hardest things I have ever written…my son’s obituary. #CureForBJRound2 #BJStrong BJ Correll, 15 years old, of Denver, North Carolina went home to be with Jesus on Sunday, March 6, 2016 after a 3½ year fight with childhood leukemia. He was in the ninth grade at North Lincoln High School. He loved basketball, football Read More
What do you do
On December 5, 2015 by Michelle LoveWhat do you do … …when your son, with shaky, trembling hands, writes a question on his white board… Is everything ok? …when he looks deep into your eyes, knowing that you’re not telling the truth, so he writes… Are you sure? …when he reaches out both arms, as steady as he can, wanting your Read More
The struggle within
On October 13, 2015 by Michelle LoveHe doesn’t get me. At all. Not many people do. Sometimes I wish he could crawl into my brain and hear the things that I say to him. Things that I wish he knew, but that I just can’t put into words. Things I can’t hear myself say out loud. Instead, we clash. Over and Read More
A Mother’s Love
On May 27, 2015 by Michelle LoveFor the past 2 1/2 years, we have been forced to have strength that we didn’t know was possible. BJ is still rock-solid. I haven’t quite recovered from the blow of that news Friday. I’ve had fewer moments of resolve the past 5 days, and more crumbling underneath the weight of it all. Today has Read More
Happy 12th birthday to BJ
On March 4, 2013 by Michelle LoveToday is BJ’s 12th birthday. Thank you God for letting me be BJ’s mom. He’s such a great kid. Even before the leukemia diagnosis, he was an awesome kid. But now, just being here every day with him, and seeing him through the good days and bad days, and horrible days, I see he’s so much Read More
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