Finding A Voice in the Pain
On October 7, 2018 by Michelle LoveI can’t fix it for her, and moms are supposed to fix things. This morning, Carly’s mood went from happy to decidedly not in a matter of minutes. I pressed her to tell me what was wrong. What happened in the last 5 minutes. She finally struggled to say…”I…miss….BJ.” Oh God. My heart. I think Read More
Remaining Who I Am
On September 13, 2018 by Michelle LoveI guess it’s a good thing, because what kind of life does she really have anyway…? But I found myself more upset than I thought I would be after the phone call. It’s not like it was a complete shock, because I’ve been seeing the signs myself. I knew she was progressing. I was the Read More
Little ears hear what you say — and they don’t forget it
On July 31, 2018 by Michelle LoveCarly was 11-years-old when BJ died. She was in that PICU room when it all happened. She was a 5th grade student. In fact, she missed 58 days of school that year because she wanted to be with her brother. She lived at the hospital too, while BJ was inpatient. She was there with us Read More
Two Country Girls and a Snake
On July 3, 2018 by Michelle LoveI have to preface this story with something that happened when I was around 11 years old. My family lived down a long gravel driveway in Mint Hill, NC that ran parallel to McAlpine Creek. Between the driveway and the creek was about a half acre of land, with a huge oak tree, and a Read More
Pirate in the Sky
On June 28, 2018 by Michelle LoveWe just saw the COOLEST cloud formation! Davy Jones in a dinghy! Read More
Easter – April 1, 2018
On April 1, 2018 by Michelle LoveOn this day, April 1, 2015…a month and a half before his leukemia relapse, visiting my mom at her memory care unit. BJ was still on treatment, but looking so healthy. Celebrating Easter today, and so very grateful for the gift of Jesus, and his resurrection that gives us hope of reuniting one day. ❤️❤️❤️ Read More
What’s Real
On January 26, 2018 by Michelle LoveI had some time by myself yesterday. For someone who has lost their child, that’s such a loaded sentence. Being alone gives an opportunity for reflection, or just allowing yourself to go to places that you usually skim across every other moment. It’s a time to dive a little deeper and release some emotions. I Read More
Variance in the Statistics…
On January 23, 2018 by Michelle LoveOriginally posted on the closed Facebook page: Bereaved Parents of Childhood Cancer My daughter, 7th grade, was working on her advanced English class presentation on a “world problem”. She chose childhood cancer. She was worried about how her classmates would receive her, as one of her “friends” was heard saying that Carly makes too big of Read More
Christmas for a kid with cancer
On December 27, 2017 by Michelle LoveDec 27, 2013…BJ, 12 years old, had to arrive very early at Levine Children’s Hospital to have surgery. His original port-a-cath had developed a sheath over the end of the line, and it had to be replaced. He was just over a year into treatment at this point and had already been through hell and Read More
Christmas 2017
On December 25, 2017 by Michelle LoveChristmas morning, still in our pajamas, visiting the one we both miss so much. Read More
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