Grief

Our Trio

On April 16, 2016 by

It’s the week after her Spring Break, so Carly and I came down to Fort Walton Beach, Florida for a few days. We decided to go somewhere we’ve never been so that we wouldn’t relive memories of revisiting a place we’d been with BJ.

I look around, see the beautiful white sand and clear greenish blue water of the ocean. BJ sure would love it here. I wonder if people see our grief. I wonder if they can see the tears that my sunglasses can’t conceal. I wonder if they can see the hole in our trio. We’re still a trio. You just aren’t standing next to us now. We’re physically a party of two instead of three now.

I close my eyes and see you standing at the shore, casting into the waves, content with your spot on that beach until the sun goes down.

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I'm a mom with a heart split between my child on earth and my child in heaven.