Childhood Cancer . Childhood Leukemia . Grief

3 Weeks of Wandering

On March 27, 2016 by

Three weeks ago today, BJ left us. For three eternal weeks, we’ve been trying to find our way through each day without him. We fought a long, tough battle side by side and the abrupt end of it has left us lost. We put our complete faith in God that BJ would be healed. With faith like that, there was no room for doubt. BJ shared that faith. His faith was wide open. He wanted to be healed, and live his life, but he also had room in his heart that God’s plan was good, whatever the outcome for himself. In his words… “It is whatever it is.”

I found a note on his computer, written January 27th. It was going to be a video for his facebook followers. “Hey everyone it’s BJ! I just wanted to say Thank You So Much for all the continued prayers. I have shocked the doctors and I truly rely on GOD through all this and trust in him to take my hand and guide me through this. GOD has a plan for me and for every person on this earth. It may not be what we expect but in the end there will be some good to come out of it.”
As inconceivable to us as this is, there was a reason that BJ wasn’t healed here on Earth, and we still know that God’s plan is good. Ultimately, BJ was right. There will be some good to come out of it. There already has been good realized through his fight, through his determination and immoveable faith in God. BJ made an impact in lives across the country. He challenged strangers to face their obstacles and live without complaint. He pushed people who followed his story to be â€ª#‎BJStrong‬!
One more thing is for certain…cancer has poked a momma bear and a sister bear. This ‘most curable’ leukemia that with standard chemotherapy protocols just wasn’t “curable, curable, curable”…Take notice…a warrior mom and a brilliant little warrior sister are coming for you. BJ’s story is far from over. He didn’t lose his fight. He passed the baton to two more-than-willing and able teammates, who are fueled by the unconditional, never-ending love of an incredible 15 year old boy who made a difference and never gave up.
With this 3rd week being Easter Sunday, we remember Christ’s death and resurrection. We are thankful for our risen Savior, Jesus Christ, and because of Him, we know we will see BJ again. We know that BJ is in the presence of Jesus. (2 Corinthians 5:8) He took BJ by the hand and ushered him into Paradise. Our faith will remain strong…why would we ever push away from the One who BJ is with?
I invite you to comment or message this page with stories of BJ…a fond memory of him, or simply how he impacted your life. Carly and I take great comfort in hearing these remembrances. Thank you for the cards and letters. We appreciate all your thoughts and prayers.
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I'm a mom with a heart split between my child on earth and my child in heaven.